8 July, 2012 (Sunday) part II

The day has yet to end... but with the amount of things happening around, its way to overwhelming for an ordinary lady like me...

My life... is so dramatic... I could write a novel out of it...

I'm in despair... eyes swollen from all the crying... everyone around... was crying together...

A day to remember... standing and trying my best to stay strong...

8 July, 2012 (Sunday)

4.00am in the morning... not in dreamland yet... Sleepless...

The rain... started 3.40am... 20 minutes ago...

The sound of the rain... makes me reached out... empty it seems...

It makes my heart ache... it reminds me...

Please, take all these away... Wash it all ... away.

1 July, 2012 (Sunday)

Today someone said to me...

"From the time I first saw you, I noticed that anything to do with emotions - your response is above normal... It may be due to your past experiences... You're always on guard. With layers of skin protecting yourself - like onions. You look strong outside but yet you hid well the fragile you inside"

Just when I thought I've found you - love

Blame me for not seeing this coming,

Blame me for being so blind,

Blame me for being dumb,

Blame me for not opening my eyes wide…

Blame me for being greedy,

Blame me for gambling with everything - all the chips that’s left, my heart, my soul, my faith & my believe

Blame nobody but myself for losing it all… on what seems to be a simple game.

Blame nothing but myself for being naïve and my own stupidity…

I forgive you for misleading me,

I forgive you for all the lies told,

I forgive you for making me the backup plan,

I forgive you for playing me a fool - a puppet I am it seems…

I forgive you for all the injuries inflicted to my fragile heart - raw wounds and still freshly bleeding…

I forgive you for destroying my faith and killing my hope,

I forgive you for everything…

Here, I shall not be angry at you for all the things done,

Here, the last thing I can do for you&I, Is that I shall forgive you with all that’s left…

I may not be able to erase the marks & scars you have left me - in the past, the present and follow did it all to my future…

But if next life does exist, with everything I shall pray, pray hard enough to god…

I pray to you MyLord, give me a pair of eyes - wide enough to see…

I pray to you MyLord, give me brains - wise enough to think…

To make sure I don’t meet you,

Or to make sure I recognize you and avoid you,

To make sure history does not repeat itself,

To make sure you leave no marks or prints in any part of my life,

To protect myself from you. 

Just when I thought I've found you…

Just when I thought I've found love...

** Should anyone use this for lyrics, please do consult... Tq